hasapoint: an old scarred woman considers (by Anna Akhmatova)
Need (Sister Lashan) ([personal profile] hasapoint) wrote in [community profile] lukeoutbelow2022-06-10 02:56 pm

Do not be afraid of light

They smelled the battlefield long before they saw it. The apprentices and little Sisters who hadn't been on this kind of excursion before covered their noses and exclaimed. Vena didn't. As the child of a camp follower she would know to expect this, but her tread slowed and she looked repeatedly at Sister Lashan, especially as the sound of incredible numbers of crows cawing grew louder.

"Nasty, isn't it? Decay is part of death which is part of life," Lashan said firmly, if not totally without sympathy. How young had she been, the last time she was upset by the aftermath of battle? "There's armies that immediately turn around and sort the living from the dying from the dead and take care of that then and there. Not here, they're leaving it for the locals to handle or not and we're local enough. If you fight, you may well fight for people who'll leave you if you fall and move on. Make sure you at least have friends who'll look for you." They pressed on with their wagon. The donkey put its ears back but did not balk.

It wasn't as bad as it would get over the next few days. The bodies - it was now academic who had belonged to which side of whichever meaningless conflict this was - were not much bloated and decayed yet. Flies were not yet overwhelming. Right now the field of bodies was mostly attended by carrion birds, and various other birds that were willing to take advantage of the bounty before them. Finches among them, tiny beaks dipped red. A few other people could be seen picking their way across what had been a perfectly useable pasture. They kept clear. Lashan tasked girls to keep watch for them anyway, pretended not to see the ones who were being sick, and oversaw as dead men were loaded onto the donkeycart. They'd take them away a distance, say the rites, strip them of useful things, get them buried, and come back.

She paused. Something... like a sound. Not a sound. Lashan was hearing something with her mind, closer than the pickers. A threat? She stood like a sentinel and paid attention.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-19 01:02 am (UTC)(link)
Guts' world was still swimming when the finishing blow that should have crushed him never came. He doesn't quite process what happened at first, vaguely hearing the whinny of Lashan's horse through the ambient noise. The boy recognizes her voice through the chaos as he shakily stands to his feet.

His arms felt cold with the drops of rain. Looking up, he sees a knife in the bear's eye socket and the futile thrashing of its thick and deadly arms.

Despite his body's complaints, he raises the blade again, eyes fluttering open beneath the rim of his helmet. Teeth clenched, he sees the line of the creature's sternum on its chest between its powerful chest muscles, and angles the sword. As terrifying as the mutant was, it was still mortal. Still a creature of flesh and blood, with a ribcage full of soft and vital organs beneath.

Head throbbing, limbs aching, he thrusts the sword upwards as the bear's great bulk falls on him, impaling the full length of steel entirely into its chest. His legs crumple beneath the weight, disappearing beneath the monster with a shout (of pain? of surprise? a bit of both). His fate was impossible to discern, but the massive creature would soon be in the throes of its own death as blood begins to spill liberally from the wound and pool widely into the damp earth.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-19 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
After the wind is knocked out of him, Guts is inundated by the sensation of being drenched. Sticky, hot blood mixed with cold and slippery earth. He'd been dragged for a bit, clinging desperately to that sword, getting mud and rocks and grass wedged between the steel plates and tightly woven leather straps before the massive bulk slumps on him and pins his body there.

He struggles with little success. No way. No way in hell was he going to die under an over-sized corpse after nearly getting his head cleaved off. The pallid, sickened flesh of the creature's belly wriggles furiously as he manages to get a hand free. Clawing half-successfully at the ground, he manages to pull his head out from beneath the bear, gasping desperately for a clean breath. It was getting too difficult to keep his grip on the ground with the rain pouring down, and he slips.

His entire arm and head are drenched in deep red, like some odd thing re-emerging from the afterbirth of the fight. Once proper air manages to half-fill his lungs again, he slumps for a moment in the mud, letting the rain fall on him, seeing double of his hand just a foot or so away from his face.

"Shit..." he wheezes out, trying to regain some energy. Well, he was alive.
Edited 2022-09-19 06:06 (UTC)
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-19 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
He doesn't grumble, lying motionless on the ground as Safflower sniffs the blood and offal on his helmet. When offered, he simply grasps at the blurry rope-like object in front of him and hangs on as best he can.

"The sword - " he gasps out, unable to think of a clever reply. He let go of Lashan's blade at some point after the bear's death, and the lack of weapon in his hand was the loudest signal blaring his brain. When Safflower helps tug his body out from under the mutated bulk of the beast, it hurts his joints. Being compressed between metal and a ton of meat was a terrible endeavor, as much as it protected all his vital parts. He manages to eventually be squeezed out onto the muddy floor.

He slowly gets up on his knees and hands, taking in deeper breaths and spitting out the blood that managed to get into his mouth. The top-half of his borrowed clothes were dyed a deep black-red, undisturbed by the rain. When he looks up, he sees Safflower's familiar tan forelegs pawing the mud. He can't help but smile a bit, even if its hidden under his visor.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-20 01:53 am (UTC)(link)
Guts curses more loudly now that there was proper air in his chest, and unfastens the helmet to slip it vigorously off his head. Without the metal obscuring his face, it was easier to see the absolutely miserable expression. Between the rain and the helmet, his black hair was plastered neatly to his skull, free of all the disgusting viscera coating everything below his eyes in blood.

When he feels a nose daring to sniff his comparitively unspoiled hair, he guesses Safflower was waiting behind him. Even without the blood, the ride and the fight would have left him quite sweaty with exertion. Rain wouldn't fix it. It was just in the process of turning him into a larger wet rat. He gets a glimpse of Galli nestled in between the two larger animals, frowning.

He's pensive, uncertain of how pissed he should be that he almost died searching for this shivering girl. A stranger. With no promise that he'd get his proper sword back. He could almost hear the admonishment in his head from every rough voice that had taught him better about surviving in the world. He gets to his feet, unsteadily at first, but his steps become more confident once he finds Safflower as a nice, steady support to lean against. No use dwelling on it.

"I wouldn't eat any of that thing's meat if I were you." he says to Lashan."Thing's obviously got some kinda disease."

It pained him to say that. How did they have so many hunters and no game meat to show for it?
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-20 04:11 pm (UTC)(link)
"Nothing serious."

He gingerly presses his fingers into his side. It felt bruised as all hell, but his breathing felt fine. The armor probably saved him from breaking any ribs. He's fairly certain his chest will look completely purple once he takes the plate off. It's a sobering thought.

There'd never been any real threshhold between boy and man, now that she mentioned it. There was just the burden of staying alive that got easier as time went on and leveled his strength with that of his enemy's. For all intents and purposes, he already considered himself one.

But despite playing aloof, even Guts would find a claw or a fang to be a pretty cool keepsake. He gives the bear's paw a brief look, shivering slightly in the rain.

"Where'd the rest of the soldiers go?"
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-21 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
Lightning? Guts looks at the sword, debating if he wanted to to go through the trouble of moving more than he had to just for a dumb souvenier. The rumble of thunder seems to push him to hurry up and make up his mind.

Once he's out of range of Safflower, his footsteps are a lot less steady than they were before the fight, but he manages to make it to Lashan to grab the sword and plop down on his knees near the bear's patchy forearm. He'll make something useful out of it, he tells himself, sitting there in the mud. The lighter blade works to cut tough tendons and cartilege. Sure. Something useful.

As he works he notes that the bear's paw was massive, much larger than his hand. And the claws were easily as long as his fingers. A set of proper knives that nature gave this thing. If it had connected properly with his body, he'd be long cold and dead. And for what?

He pauses, staring stiffly, before continuing. The wrist bone makes a cracking sound as he hammers down lightly with the pommel of the sword. Now they have some teeth and a paw. Lashan gets a miserable little side eye to indicate he was done, now properly soaked to his own bones.

"Let's get out of here already."
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-22 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
The trek back is miserable, Guts shivering with his prize in the rain until they bump into the cart with a proper roof and blankets. His treatment is less gentle, though the fact that he could still mount and dismount Safflower (if with some significant difficulty) gave them leeway to assume he was mostly fine.

He winces on his way down from the saddle, guided to the cart by a lone girl staring at the massive bear paw in his hands. The plate armor is removed much quicker than it's mounted to his body, eager as he was to untie all the leather strings and straps. The blood is somewhat cleaned off his skin by the rain, though it remains staining Lashan's shirt. He takes this off, too - both to see the damage and to remove another sopping wet layer off his body. He only needed a glimpse of the ugly purple blotching on his chest to know he was going to be deeply sore for another few days at least.

Guts occupies the corner opposite to Lashan and the others around her, blanket wrapped tight, sipping the warm milk wordlessly. He seemed content to keep the company of his armor, the sheathed sword, and all the unused arrows sitting in their quiver. Still, the gray in her face was worrying.

“How’s the old lady? Didn’t keel over yet, right?” the question is tossed into the air, earning him a dirty look. Cold could easily do in someone her age, he knew.

Luckily, it seemed like she was getting some color back into her cheeks, from what he could glimpse between all the other Sisters.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-25 09:22 am (UTC)(link)
There she goes. The crazy old lady and her obsession with horses. Maybe the cold was getting to her. Or maybe it was getting to him, since some of the lanterns had a bizarrely colored fire in them.

"I'm fine," he replies flatly,"Aside from being stuck in the rain."

Guts was a mirror of Lashan in that way, apparently. He would have said he was fine even if he was in much worse condition, if the previous fight was any indication. As it was, his face was a bit pale from the cold, but not nearly as gray as Lashan had gotten. The blanket had stayed his wet trembling, and he seemed rather attached to it. The cloth concealed much of the beatdown his body received, and he wasn't about to explain how his head still hurt as ferociously as his ribs did.

The uncomfortable itchiness around his leg does get him to notice a shard or two of horn embedded in his thigh. His legs were sparingly armored compared to his upper body, and tended to be nicked with small wounds more often. Thoughtlessly, he sets aside the clay cup (now devoid of warm drink) and fiddles with the things to attempt to pluck them out. They were more thorn than arrow in shape, so he wasn't too worried about bleeding out.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-25 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
“What the hell…?” He mutters to himself, wondering how his wounds had dried up so quickly in the soaking wet rain. What was in that milk they gave him?

Guts curls up into a ball beneath his blanket once he checks his legs for the fourth or fifth time to make sure there were no more thorns embedded in them. They still itched like a scab as the wounds spilled over slowly with bright red. Hopefully it wasn’t infected from the rancid creature.

He earnestly felt too miserable to say something smart back to the girls, eyes drooping half-shut with weariness. His face looked okay, beyond a few scuffs and the ebbing sharpness in his eyes. The adrenaline of the fight had worn off, leaving him with a rich buffet of burning and aching. A post-fighting drink (a real drink) would do a lot better for him now, he thinks.

“The bath’s for washing the blood off, ain’t it?” He says, not considering the particular Enclave Sister that would have to take care of the aftermath.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-26 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
Fastidious as a cat? He looks at the Sister with a flattened, weary expression, unsure if it was an insult (overly fastidious??) or a compliment. His head was still swimming too much to determine the answer. So he melts further still into his pile of blanket until his face is half-obscured by it. All that's left is one long leg extended haphazardly accross the cart, the other folded up with the rest of him.

"Warm water would be nice..." he admits, voice muffled through the bundle. A thoughtless wish tossed into the air in earnest. Too hot and his body will ache and throb, too cold and he'll be miserable and shivering.

It was hard to make out the infirmary from the village gate, but he catches a glimpse of the familiar arrangement of lanterns through the sheets of rain. So much for being kicked out. Guess he'd be roommates with that apothecary witch for longer than she'd like.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-09-28 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
The offered hand was really for him? "... Oh, thanks."

As she guessed, it takes a little wind-up time for Guts to find his legs from his comfortable position in the wagon. He's dense for his size, earning that protesting peep from Faler when he steps out onto the mud, grasping for the point of stability.

"Sorry." he remarks sheepishly. Once his two feet were planted on the ground, he's able to ease the wobble in his step and walk on his own. He lags behind Lashan at his own pace, aches gradually increasing and throbbing painfully. He didn't pay it too much attention as he stepped through the door. The discomfort was a familiar one.

The infirmary is busy, again, and he has nothing he can give the Apothecary but a shrug at her observation. Yep. He'd just left that morning. Not even a day had passed and he was back under her roof again with more work to give her. At least this time, he had a trophy to show for it.

"It's nothing. Just got some scratches and scrapes." he replies, parting the blanket open like a cape so she could get a look. "Head hurts, though."

The lacerations on his skin were minor, small streaks of red that had scabbed over. The result of being dragged accross rocky gravel or shards of wood jammed into gaps in his armor. The punctures from the horns were among the worst of it.

The bruises on his chest and shoulders looked uglier, mottled patterns of deep red and purple. The blotches mostly followed along the edges of the plate armor where it had been slammed against his skin. The bruising of his ribs radiated from the bottom, the bottom edge of the armor. Being thrown around by such a large creature had done its number on him, but the plate metal had spared him lethal injuries. Nothing seemed to be irreparably broken.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-10-01 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
Guts thought he would get used to the staring a week in, but girls always find a way to make him feel … weird? Embarrassed? He is more accustomed to being dismissed for being a lone whelp with no status to speak of.

Avoiding the peanut gallery to focus on the Sister Apothecary instead, he answers her questions agreeably enough as she examines the injuries with a practiced eye and hand. She was right, in the end. He was incredibly lucky to only be battered rather than dead. It wouldn’t be the first time a surgeon has told him this. The change in her expression was notable as she says this, but he figures there’s no sense no dwelling on it. He would risk his life again soon enough. That was his line of work, after all.

The boy simply nods and takes the herbs, giving the top of the bag a curious sniff or two.

“Smells nice…” he adds. The Infirmary tended to have plenty of pleasant herbal scents abound. The blood and rot of the battlefield hadn’t infected this place.

On his way to the basin he briefly looks at Lashan, as if wanting to say something, but reconsiders it given the crowd of Sisters around her. Maybe another time.

Faler gets a quiet ‘Thanks’ for her assistance, slipping behind the screen to wash the dried blood off his body. Fastidious as a cat, just as she said.
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[personal profile] garmr 2022-10-03 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
The hushed voices carry beyond the dividers, though Guts does nothing to gloat about the victory. He still plans on collecting his end of the bargain when Lashan was feeling better. He takes a bit longer than expected, curling up in the standing basin to enjoy the warm water for as long as the heat remained. If he were in the bathhouse proper, he might have sank in for a more indulgent amount, letting the warmth and pleasant herbs make the aches of his body ease up.

The robe disappears behind his side of the cloth panels once he dries himself. The robe fit more awkwardly than Lashan’s hand-me-downs, the sleeves feeling small around his arms while the neckline left more of his chest exposed to the cold air than usual.

He awkwardly gives the sleeves a tug or two, assuring himself that the shoulder seams won’t split if he moves, before realizing in the middle of it how soft the clothing was on his skin. The wooded scent was pleasantly familiar, the smell of lone nights under quiet pine-crossed starfields. Of course, he would also carry an herbal scent with him once he leaves the bath to take the cup of medicine from the Apothecary.

Following her instruction, he tips his head back and downs the entire solution. The flavor is strong enough to make his face twist up in displeasure. Gross.

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